Sunday, August 15, 2010
Life really has been going at its full speed without really giving you time to digest all that has been ingested or injected or even shoved right into you. I really feel this season of life is really challenging in the sense of finding who you ware and sticking up to your identity when people pull you down and have doubts about you.
It is like you are now breaking grounds where relationships have never been before, testing the waters and changing people's concepts of you as you slowly mold yourself. Time passes by and characteristics pass by to, people's goals change, people's idea of their dreams change as time after time has proven to have alter through the various choices.
Ever so yet, the choices I have made thus far has made me understand myself a bit more and the people around me. Hearts were pushed around and thrown around in order for people to pay attention to its desires, but yet, it still falls short of what people choose to believe in. People would say that the choices you make are not good enough, but doubt not, lets embrace it and make the most out of it.
Life really has come a long way from the naive blissful nature and is going to get a bit more woeful if things don't really come to certain circumstances set by you or others. A mutual ground that is far from being discovered hence there will never be equality towards each others loves.
Shouts and screams and even loving advice that has been repeated too often that it turns a person sour when ever so often repeated has been surrounding my woeful self. I wonder if I could ever believe that there is a time where ignorance would take place without the guild of lying to others or to yourself that everything will be ok will exist due to the endless search of common grounds. Maybe until then, voice raising and loud shouting will just be a common sight or just pain to the ears.
I have constant thoughts of just being alone in deep serenity and a get away from the world to only select what I want to do or who would be around me and what they would say to me, excusing myself from the pain. But yet, how am suppose to do this when, all we get is everyone sense that they need to work things out together. But currently, the situation resides in me, I really wish I could just be alone and not drown in your words...
In the end, you cry and I cry, why don't we just flood this town tonight so that I might drown and you could flood on me...
silenced at 8/15/2010 03:03:00 PM